i've just created a new livejournal.
i think i wanna start again. i've been a bitch.
(: thanks.

WHY WHY WHY?
tell me.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, BITCHES.

crap that its suppsed to be happy? but i'm not really. Things haven't been going well. holey moley.
Last night reunions dinner at Shang palace, pictures in the next post. It was great and quite funny because i looked like my mom's sister. This means that either i look old or she looks young, dammit. last night was some cny prayer thing, was realyl sleeeeeepy. Also, it was mentioned that my lucky colour this year is black. yayy! Anyway, yeh today had a family lunch, quite family time where i laughed like mad, my mom said '' aiyo which guy is going to like you '' hahaha SORRY MOM, its so funny. heehee. i am super full now i think i can explode, really. i've put on like 1kg since last night. ahhhh i weigh myself every half an hour i think hahaha. too bad, scaring myself won't help because i love food(: later my relatives will be coming and we've catering. Did i mention i love yu sheng? i don't get why so many people don't like it. I swear i could eat it as my salad! its dammit good, the taste is so.. confusing. its sour and sweet and omg good. hahaha. Also today, i realsed my brother has a very perverse look, like very very, he can do the half smile wink really well. (ps so can my dad) he was asking me what hair colour he should dye next. HAHA i said electric blue and he said he'll think about it but its ait.. informal. HAHA :/

i like square angbaos.
so i guess i'll wear black for this new year?

Because you live girl, my world has twice as many stars in the sky,

I wonder what's been up lately. I feel easily affected for no particular reason at all. This is bad, this sucks. oh my cow. Time is flying, Chinese new year's almost here already. 2008 passed by super quickly and i don't want 2009 to go by as fast. I wanna make 2009 the most memorable before my life ends here. Damn, I haven't been coping with school subjects. I feel so stupid, i only have 7 subjects, 2 i can't study for but i still can't make it. I really really don't get what we're doing in math almost all the time :/ is there something wrong with me? And school makes me feel sad, i'm not too sure why either. AHHHHHHH, why isn't my life getting any better. Oh and yeh, everyone's starting to get all busy. I wonder when we can spend time together again, i really miss your company going crazy together. Maybe after this 10months i'm not gonna see you again? Maybe i'm gonna see you everyday? I don't know, seriously, I don't want to let go of it, and i know you don't either. But we've to do something bout it, i mean. How can we keep hoping/wishing for something but not do anyhting bout it? I know its easy to say but we've gotta try okay. Let's not break the promise we made. You're something so irreplaceable that if i let go, i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to live through it. Let's not let that fade away. Please, let's spend more time together, we could make this better. i love you. I am still trying in school no matter how hard it is, i've to keep fighting on, its not over and i still have somethings to look forward to. I wanna get through this.

you're the missing piece inside of me,
the reason that i'm singing,
i needa find you.

life is what happens when you're 
busy making your excuses,

lifelifelifelife. life sucks. hell yeh. omgg i'm fuming i swear i can't seem to get anything right at this point of my life. My past few days have been super .. how to say? uhm, moodswingish. i swear. NOTHING IS GOING THE RIGHT WAY. don't get anything right in school / can't get what the hell the teacher is trying to say / stupid scolding from teachers / freaking sleepy even when i sleep early / I JUST CAN'T DO MATH DAMMIT. / bad money days / bad hair days / i'm too over-sensitive / i'm too petty / i'm too easily irritated / i don't feel i belong / i get into trouble too eaily / i piss people off super easily / my moodswings are crazy / i'm super pissed off at the weighing machine and height thingy in school / im very sad that the gym is closed / the burning sun is making me more frustrated / i hate myself / i don't like what i do / i don't like how i behave / i can't seem to find my worksheets / i've lost a total of 5 clean colors / i'm not 16 yet / i embarass myself / people's phone credit run out / chinese new year ain't gonna be chinese new year / recession sucks / i've totally lost my staminia / I LOST MY MOM'S 8GB THUMBDRIVE and she's asking for it. bloody hell. I think there are more to the list but i don't wanna list them, such stuff can be private. what's up with me these days? i just can't seem to get things right, really, i've actually never quite felt like that in a long time. i thought i liked the way it was but everything is coming in now. wtf. everyone is talking about o levels jcs polys omfg, its scaring me its pressurizing me you know. really, they want us to get 6 points, i dont underestimate my school's students but i know i confirmed cannotcannotcannot make it. i really want to try hard but it just seems like i can't freaking even pick myself up. i don't have any determination or willpower. i think i am going crazy. this time if i can't find my way, i'm gonna give up.


there is hope.

and i don't want the world to see me,
cuz i don't think that they'd understand,
when everything's meant to be broken,
i just want you to know who i am.

fuck life.
 

omg. I've just realised something. After reading your blog and stuff, I feel really really sorry. You know, I see you everyday, I talk to you everyday. Why do you have to keep so much things to yourself. I know you are really good at making people feel better but you know, you don't care bout yourself? You're really sweet. You do all you can for your friends and try out of your ways to help them and never forget their needs. Do you ever think of yourself first? Do you? I knew for very long, very well that you're one that won't bother others and you never let others think you're down. But i can see it, from your face. I can see that everytime something bad happens, you're torn up. And when i ask if you're okay, you insist that nothings wrong. Your smile looks like such a beautiful scene but inside its about to crumble. I can feel it. I know you're the type that will never let it out. You're such a strong, loyal and determined friend. I swear, you're willpower, no one can measure up to you. I really respect you for that. But i really pray and wish that you could do a little something for yourself. I know you study real heard and you don't want to let your parents down. But you're really too hardcore, please don't push yourself too hard. You have your limits and i don't wanna see you fall. I don't think you'll read this but i really hope that you could think about yourself sometimes. I'll be there for you, really. When i see your smile it kinda hurts me because i know behind it, you're down. Don't let it carry on. Please, please don't keep everything to yourself. Because i'm just next to you. I know i can be a total bitch sometimes but i wanna let you know that i care.♥

NAHHH, I don't love school, still not in the mood.
Anyway, i forgot to put this up. On Monday Mr Jo was confirming our class relay system and then he was randomly asking people who they're supposed to pass to. And,
Mr Jo: "So, Khoon Ting (with the funny accent), who are you supposed to pass to?"
Khoon: " Crest ( actually wanted to say Chris ).. I mean Chris "
Mr Jo: " Oh so you pass to Christ la! "
whole class HAHAHAHA.

shit i think i was high or something.. dammit. Haha, today we had sec 1 orientation, the sec ones seem rather ... dao.
HAAHA, okay whatever but it was a goodday anyway(: Oh yes, did i mention omfg i have like triple math period on Day1s. what theeeee.
And the school should have more geog lessons. i secretly love geog lectures actually:D That is weird. Oh and uhm, today i swam then i did all my 5 geog homework (mind you they were evaluatives and structured)!! yay. Now I can't sleep. damn. Oh hahaha, i read bout anorexia. very creepy, there was a picture in my geog text under malnutrition. HEH. i kinda like human geog!

i know this emptiness, somehow i've been here alone before,
didn't mean for that, just thought i could rest a few breaths,
gain back my senses and try again, baby.
(cuz the pass few times have been redundant and it seems like nothing good was gonna happen, i can't wait forever, can i?)

THANKS KREEPY KAT LOADS LOADS BABY♥

HEH, actually, sorry man, didn't see what i was missing out for quite awhile, remember sec 2? What a waste man.. Nevermind, we 'took it back' this year. Anyway, I don't wanna type too much stuff or info here because it ain't private and you don't have a livejournal you kreep! HAHA. Anyway, it was great knowing you better and i think it was quite . . . and .. adventure to know me better haha. BECAUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, thanks for being able to tolerate my nonsence. I swear, only you can tolerate my rubbish. And when i'm pissed, its like i'm pissed at the whole world, i know you understand. And when i'm sad I just wanna cuddle and get it off. OH and when i'm moody, its the worst, i know it can be pretty serious and annoying but you didn't say anything! you're damn great, like the greatest person everrrrrrrrrrr, really. I think we have been through quite a lot and see we're still as strong as ever, like the GREAT WALL. sorry, i coudln't help but link this to the great wall because i mean, how often do bestfriends climb the ancient greatwall together?! You tell me ;) we rock man. Oh and yes, i have to rub this in, though our personalities are like worldssssssss and universessssssssss and miles apart differences, we still can get along well okay dammit cool. Sorry sometimes i lose my mind hahaha i'm a bit weird or very weird, i know(: hehh hehh but you are,too. Oh one similarity, our dressing, HAHAHA. and our OPERATION NAKIL!! yayyyyyyy. I seriously can't wait. AIyooo i don't need to say anything already. Everything is between us okay!
PS: yupp whatever we have is worth fighting for expecially this huge challenge ahead of us(you know what i mean OPERATION NAKIL)
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
KIM I BLANK YOU.

 
&I'M VERY SURE OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL LAST LONGER THAN THE GREATWALL ((:

oh yes & one more thing, remember we tried acting can i have this dance? out at the greatwall. Okay, this phrase : even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart
( because my heart is whereever you are ) is important.

MY BABE IS BEING VERY NICE AND HELPING ME TO _______
SO I SHALL THANK HER HERE AND YAY! YOU ROCK SIA.
HAHAHAHAHA. AND YES, THANKS FOR THE RANDOM CHATS AND CHEERING UP.
LOVE U ALWAYS AND ITS FUNNY HOW WE MET HAHAHAHAH OMFG.
(see baby pink for you, babe)

heeehee peace&love.

I CAN SPEND LESS & SAVE MONEY.
I CAN CONTROL MY FOOD INTAKE.
I CAN STOP BEING SO WHATEVER.

♥loverboy, tell me how we've been. BAD.

okay whooops, so i didn't update before i left. hehh.
okay i will update now, well i left for bout 21 days and of course, i'm not gonna update on each and every day. hmm, i'll just post what i did in point form and upload pictures. Ps: i grew fat, so angry > : (
 

• kim arrived my place at bout 9 plus and we did last minute packing and prep.
• then took a maxi cab to airport and then checked in and stuff, walked round the airport and bought toblerone to eat. ahem fatso.
• met aunt may and uncle jimmy with shawn and jet at the beijing airport
• it snowed when we arrived then met aunt gillian uncle john alyssa and johnson
• hmm i think we went to eat peking duck and stuff
• went to forbidden city the first thing HAHA
• then ski resort together for bout 3 days, really cold and fun and FUNNY omggggg.
• ate super a lot and showered in icing water in icing winter hahaha heater rox sox
• went back to beijing city again visited the summer palace, olympics place, temple of heaven, the ming tombs
• then a few days later we went to kempinsky by the great wall
• kempinsky is like one of the bestest place in the world that you should definately go especially the ancient great wall parts. we rented one of the villas and it was hell good.
• there, kim and i jogged at like 11plus in -10degrees with jeans andhoodie and beanie and we were sweating.
• climbed the ancient great wall! super nice, one of the best things ever. ( got small pieces for platoonmates)
• went back to the city then aunt may and family had to go back to singapore ):
• hmm so next few days shopped a lil then spent my birthday
• then ate more more more
• went to the temple where the emperors went and the confucious temple
• soon they had to go back too so left with my family & kim
• hahahah she's part of my family too, a fellow 嘉.(:
• we went to shanghai shopped shopped and then played at the club
• we said 你好 and other greeting to anyone random we passed by HAHAHA.
• went back to beijing and slacked a lil and then the days passed super fast
• new year's celebration, kim & i went clubbing, HAHAH, like really. - very fun & funny. gosh we were super high.
• then next day, back to singapore ):

1. kim was with me throughout, yay we bonded more! learnt like super alot bout each other HAHHA ups & downs (:
2. young friends are so fun HEHEHE
3. shopping rocks
4. watched saw 123 and american pie 12345
5. peking duck! :O
6. skiing
7. kempinsky was dammit beautiful
8. i love the historic sites ESP the ancient great wall & forbidden city
9. saw like a few O-M-Gs +1 ( HAHA inside joke )
10. we love clubbing
11. throughout this trip we took first class , business class and economy class !
     

this is what we snacked... ahem x2.

In da plane.

It snowed when we arrived!!

Random...

Eleventh balll :D:D:D:D yay.

shawn is dammit cute, i swear.

walking to the Forbidden city

our secret 掉头crap.. HAH

outside forbidden city, don't mind the faces, quite screwed.

AHAHAH, Chang Chun (Gong)

the beef curry rice rocked sox during winter zomg.

at the food street we found there. SCORPIONS :O

and liver, pancreas, stomach, weird stuff and BUGS. yuxx to the maxx

Choosing clothes everyday (everydie HAHAHA inside joke) -faints-

shanghai crabs, the bomb.

and the hot chocolate cake! fatzzzzz.

okay so this is at the ski resort. We brought this.

These, ( 3 boxes of loafs of bread and 1 toaster )

and these HAHAHA.

Hmm, getting the ski stuff. Yay we wore the No.4 jacket!

From left, Aunt May, Jet, Shawn, Neimann.

ordering food after skiing. Damn cool please.

Youngsters who drink beer :O NAHHHH, in future maybe.

 
Playing stress. HAHAH RMB PISSED? HAHAHA

our every 3 days washing soxx/underwear sessions

OMG ITS QUITE FUNNY.

This was at Summer Palace

The lake wasn't frozen enough to walk on this year.

SEE.

This was at Temply of Heaven(:

On the way back, we were playing murderer

Dinner at Da Dong, SUper freak good.

We ordered 4 and a half ducks HAHA

Going to great wall(: see our cool leaning thing! we stood like that for 10 minutes, NOT EASY.

On the way we stopped at the olympics place, or Bird's Nest .. HA

The frozen lake outside the 'bird's nest' we were jumping on it, very creepy.

My dad rented this villa AND IT ROCKED SOX.

BAMBOOS :D

This is the house, i know, looks weird from here. But its one of the best creation ever,

then we ate at the restaurant there, super fresh food HAHA

Commune by the great wall rox!

Kim.. Died... At the commune. HAHA KIDDING SHE'S ALIVE AND STILL LOVING ME ;)

HEHE ILY TOO(:

I HEART SC NCC AND PART Cs 08!

We jogged darker than this.

Tired so we piggybacked each other teehee. KIM IS FIT MAN.

Next day we climbed the ANCIENT GREAT WALL !

On the way..

OMG CHECK THIS OUT OMFG HAHA

Hell yeh we were there

super good right omfg. Can you spot my brother and dad in the 1st picture?

yup(:


SUPER STEEP

LS.

DA KIDZ. (KIDS R KOOL)

Eating at the outside 'dining table'

SEE SO HUNGRY, its was like 1 degree and we wore one layer HAHAHA

MOISTURIZER IS IMPORTANT

The Ming Tomb was kinda creepy, had a weird experience u know...

look at the temperature and time and sky. It was getting dark at 3.48 and it was max -3 and min -9

GUESS WHAT WE MET HWEETING(CHIA) WHILE SHOPPING!

My bro went to the pet market (HAHA) and saw this, creepy.

Now the temple that the Kings visit, can't remember the names. But look how ironis this picture is,
its so freaking cold we're wearing like 1094890394 layers and see the gloves sticking out of kim's pocket? We took them out because we were eating/drinking. Im looking like a caterpillar trying to stay warm drinking HOT TEA while this KIMBERLEY is eating ICE CREAM, freaking hell and still can smile. my face was freaking frozen for shit. & yup so she help me carry my bag (: hehh But yes i agree with her its warm eating icecream because the icecream is warmer than outside(:

The confucious temple! from left: kim, nat, aly!

THERE WAS BUBBLE TEA OMFG. HAHA HAPPY LEMON. AHEM.

My birthday! yes my favourite rose!

hmm group pic.

abit high already.

my papa

and mama. sorry i lazy to flip the pics so pls flip ur head instead thanx

ALY! this is unglam omg.

squeezing my bro.

making icecream!

we real cool. HAHAHA

I got these for my birthday, look at the rose, THE GLITTER! very FNICE!

they said the next one will be from my boyfriend. HAHAHA. I WANT A BLACK ONE THANKS

camtoot hahaha

heh heh look we did nails! (cept kim) HAHA

one of my favourites, just cept my outer coat smells like peking duck now!

my brother helped make this cake, so sweet man & he has double chin here!

HAHAHAHA

we're the JIAs! (heck my stomach it wasnt real ah!!)

A proof kim does her homework.

HAHA random picture, we challenged outselves to stay outside for 10 minutes with 2 layers only it was like minus 10

the Dong Hu Lake, People ice skate. but we just sled around and ran HEHEH VERY FUN BUT WE WERE FREEZING

This is what we wore on Xmas. HAHA our outfit. Green checkered dress and red tights HAHAA

the apples and so SMALL!

look at the villas man,, so cute and neat! (shanghai)

our suicidal picture HAHAH. sitting at the balcony edge, can die, you know!

LOOK AT THIS DISH ITS CALLED FRY THE VEG

We went bowling!

We had fondue.. fatttt.

Went to Yu Yuan.. quite pretty and bought quite a lot.

this is quite random picture...

we ate the 'living room' restaurant on the 89 floor of the Mori Building LOOK GRAND HYATT IS SHORTER! HAHA LAMEEE

In Dong Jiao restaurant HAHAHA AHEM. THIS PICTURE GOT SIGNIFICANCE

Newyear's my rents dressing up my bro.

awhhhh yeh

HAHAHA JIA(: significance too okay!

OUR NEW YEAR'S MASK! so pretty man.

clubbing, seriosuly, HAHAHA FUNFUNFUN!

there are much more but too many to upload, so forget it.
alright cyahh peace&love.
ps: still in holiday mood > : (

 does it help you to claim to the shell you've turned into?

i wish you the best & the worst.

today i woke up at 3.30pm
...
i know right. shittttttttt. Sighhh yesterday i rented some dvds (: Before watching them i went to work out HAHA. really. omg i feel so unfit :/ tsktsktsk better start working out more man, i've turned into a huge piece of fat flab ):, nope, definately not nice to hug. rawrr. Then i had healthy dinner eheheheh. And today, i watched camp rock . . . ? hahahah. omg i planned to wake up at 10 to wash my mom's car ( see how much i'm in need of $$$, she just wouldn't give it to me, she wants me to earn it, that's the only thing i can think of ) SIGHHH i haven't done ANY homework at all. okay, i don't even know what i have. Believe me, i bet a lot of you haven't started / don't plan to start either ( ahem xinwei ) .. i don't know if i should start. i've been telling myself to start since 2 weeks ago but see the progress? geez. Okay oay, i think i will do my commonwealth today, i feel dammit bad.

1. Can I help you?
2. Bullying is an issue which concerns young people throughout the Commonwealth. Why does it matter and what can be done about it?
3. It is 200 years since Charles Darwin was born and 150 years since the publication of "On the origin of Species". In your view, what evolutionary developments are needed to ensure the continuing survival and well-being of humanity?
4. EITHER Unlikely friends OR An unexpected friendship.
5. The match.
6. EITHER the Commonwealth Question OR Charlton Athletic Community Trust Question.
    

CLASS B - Born 1993-1994

HMMMMMMM. i.dont.know. helppppppp ahhhh someone tell me what homework i have pleaseeee :/


On a lighter note, i'm leaving tomorrow, YAYYY :D hehehe, exciting, my luggage is FULL, already. Kim's coming over tomorrow morning to prepare, hehh. Maybe i'll blog tomorrow before i go!

i'm so glad i didn't pick you.

oh, i think i'll go wash her car now :D

Looking at you, my heart loves the view.

talking to my girlfriend now, i totally get it, chill k? love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Omfg today i heard the most horrendous headline this whole year. ITS DISGUSTING, i swear. gawsh. Some people should really get a life. Total toothole. ughh, i'm so pissed off.

And yes, wth is wrong with you. What the hell are with your broken promises?! Please get your facts right, thanks.

Please, what's your phone for if you don't pick up/reply.

This week has been dammit pissing. grr. Maybe its just me. I'm super dammit sensitive.

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk it.
 

let's pretend you're mine,
you got what i like, i got what you like,
come one baby we ain't gonna live 4ever.

how can i believe when this cloud hangs over me?
you're the part of me i don't wanna see.

i'm so lazy to blog bout the past few days so i shall not. Basically, i shopped, 1PR class party, watched movies, mrt rides ( LOL ), had mother-daughter time. HAHAHA. omgg, haha had BSI sleepover, super fun please haha. pictures on facebook!

and.. omg.
i absolutely hate people who dao me. GOSH. don't want to talk then say lah! How'd i know what you're thinking if you don't say? ughh. omfg, annoying annoying annoying, and i was just trying to talk to you as a freaking friend. OMFG. AND YES, I CAN'T CHILL. i know i'm real sensitive lah huh.